The Tango Maureen
Posted on May 19th, 2009 at 12:02am
Here I am, yet again, forcing myself to write in this. This is a bad habit I need to curve, and quick.
Life has been stuck on the “pretty good” setting for quite a few weeks now, but I’m wondering if I didn’t accidently kick the plug out. Not that I think I did something specific, but I’m starting to feel like I’m slipping into that whiney-emo phase again. At least I’m aware of it, and maybe I can dig in my heels and try to stop the descent.
The big news of the day is that Danny and I have decided not to move. Over the course of a few months, my apartment plans have jumped from living with Mallory, to living with Tera, to living with myself… from moving to LA, to SD, to staying in Oceanside, to getting something more beech-y. All of these things, to eventually end up exactly where I was before, in another ten-month lease.
I’m actually quite alright with this decision. I think Danny begrudgingly agreed, but I know that if he really had a big objection he’d tell me. I’m hoping to try and make the most of this. Next weekend is a 3-day for me, and I’m wondering if I shouldn’t buy a bucket of paint and paint a wall red. Move some furniture around, and try to achieve that “new apartment” feeling, without the new apartment. We’ll see.
I’m finding myself with a little bit more money at the end of the month than I’m used to. My social life has dwindled down to practically nothing, so I’m saving a lot of money on dinners out, and small purchases at Disneyland. So, with that said, I’ve been thinking about some bigger purchases to make. Namely a new camera.
My Nikon D40 is probably my biggest regret purchase in a long time. It was just after I got my new “big-boy” job and had more than a few hundred bucks in a paycheck, and I wanted to splurge on something awesome. I haven’t been happy with that camera since day one. I’m now wondering if I should buy a new lens for the thing, something that may help fix the problems I have with the camera. Or should I just save my pennies a little longer and just buy a whole new camera?
I have been talking a lot more to The Sarahs lately. I’m pretty sure they would both hate being referred to as that… but it’s my blog. 6am have been chatting for a weeks now. It’s been really nice. We are both far more… level-headed than we were previously. Maybe that time away did us some good, after all.
Florisarah and I have been off and on for a long while now. There’s never any singular event to cause the dry-spell. I think we just go through natural ups and downs. I miss her like crazy, and can’t wait for the day we can go out for a burger on a whim, like so many years ago.
I’ve got a couple play-dates set up with Tera for the coming week. More wine and porno, because it has simply been way too long since the last time we’ve done that. Another small Disneyland fix after work later this week is in the cards, too.
Speaking of cards, Charrmaine and I are well overdue for a hangout. Her and I have been trying to put our schedules together for a Disneyland trip, too, but it hasn’t been working out. So, I think I’m gonna head up to LA for a run around the city.
Trying to keep busy. Trying so hard to keep busy.
Goodnight Moon.
I miss you. And you. And you.