Maybe-Someday.com

Posted on September 23rd, 2001 at 1:26am

Wee! Today was a great day. There is NO better way to start your day than with a phone call from Cheryl. I woke up to the phone ringing, and it was lovely little Cheryl on the other end!! Wee!! What a wonderous soon-to-be-birthday present for me!

Eek, I really need to come up with some sort of list as to what I want for my b-day. My parents are buggin’ me bad.

Work today was also pretty grand. There were a bunch of really cute kids that were complaining of people hitting on them… It was sillyness. I could type out the whole story… but I wont.

After work I got a call from Stephanie!! She called because she thought tomorrow was my bday, and wanted to wish my happy bday!! I’m impressed she came that close to it! 9 out of 10 people don’t remember my b-day… including my parents. :shrugs: Her and I gunna go hang out tomorrow night. I made a mistake in planning to go to the Animation Festival tomorrow night.. ‘cuz, well, it doesnt play tomorrow night. So… yeah.

I changed up the Message Board lots. Its now a MaybeSomeday message board, no longer Another Emotion. Got a few more little changes coming to it too.

Now I just gotta finish my goddamned website… lordy.

“[something in japanese]…”

Posted on September 22nd, 2001 at 3:25am

Man, I wouldn’t mind learning how to spell someday soon. Yup.

Well… the phrase of the month is World Domination!! I’m taking over the web. Oh yes, just wait and see.

I’ve got nothing to say really. Last night I hung out with Amy, and we ran into Paul and Meghan at Meghan’s house. Paul was being somewhat rude to me there. Oh well. And then later tonight, I went online and was telling Austin about my night and I told him that Paul and Meghan were drinking… which they were. Heh. Aw, fuck it.. I dont wanna be telling this story over and over again.

Long story short: The AnotherEmotion.com website is down for good untill they wanna make one themselves.

I’m not sure what else to talk about. My b-day is coming up quickly!!! Yay for me!! Umm… I got lots of money now, can’t wait to see what I’ll get by the end of this week. Joyfull joyfull.

Goodnight all.

“…”

Posted on September 20th, 2001 at 12:46pm

I remain hopefull… and optimistic. I keep my fingers crossed. I’m wearing the ring. I keep a smile on my face… and I keep her in my heart.

I remain hopefull.

I reamain.

“I’ll take it by your side…”

Posted on September 20th, 2001 at 2:09am

Its been a while since the last entry. Thats not really my fault tho. I went to go do an entry Monday night but the servers were down.. .and blah and shit.

Monday night I hung out with Meredith and Lindsay!!! Meredith randomly popped online and we made plans to hang out at Vinakas. I met her friend, Cara I think her name was… something similar like that. She told me she moved out!! I was so excited for her. After a half hour or so at Vinakas, we all went back to her new place where I met up with Lindsay and met a whole bunch of their new friends. They all seem really cool… smoke too damn much tho. I probably second hand smoked a pack that night. Its all good.

I felt really comfortable with them… it was a good feeling. I’ve been feeling so shitty on a day to day basis the past couple of days.. that it felt real good just to kick back and actually relax. I think it was part of the growing up thing. There I was with a group of people my own age, (which is a rare thing for me) in their own apartment, just hanging out watching cheesy 70’s movies… it was great.

Definatly helped fuel my moving out fire.

I had blood drawn today. I probably have mono or something similar. I’ve been sleeping non stop all month. I litterally wake up at six, go to my first class, come home and sleep, go to my second class, come home and sleep untill its time to go to bed.

Things on the relationship front are getting better by the day! I love being able to say that. :) I really miss her a lot, but I’ve been talking to her a lost more than usual lately. I should shut up so I dont jinx it. She just keeps surprsing me. :)

Oh my goodness, I saw Daner in the Dark tonight. I’m quickly adding that to my list of faveorite movies. Fucking A. If I wasn’t watching it with a big group of people, I would have cried. Very well done.

I think I’ve found a place to move out too. Now I just need to get the money. Sergio might also move in with me, which’ll be cool. I haven’t fully decided yet if I want to be alone, or with a roomate. My parents are strongly pushing me to just be alone.. all on my own. And I think I’m leaning twoards that at the moment. Not sure.

But yes… I need a job.

“…”

Posted on September 15th, 2001 at 12:39pm

So…. heres the story:

At work, LegoLand, we have cute little shows, just like most theme parks. In the Castle Hill show (the show right in the same ‘land’ as me) one of the frequent actors is named Marty. Hes a pretty funny dude… must be like 30+ something years old.

Tonight Michelle called me. She was really hyper and what not saying she was bored. She said she was supposed to “hang out” with a friend of hers and he hadn’t shown up yet and wanted to do something with me. She made it sound like I didn’t want to know who her friend was, but she told me anyway. I didn’t ask. But she was supposed to meet this Marty fellow to go get some coffee. I’m a little bothered by that… not quite appropriate. She also managaed to tell me that there was another party tonight but she didn’t wanna go because she “people will be drinking there and I dont want to do that again.” Implying that she’s drinking a lot now.

So whatever… I AM SO DONE WITH HER! I cant take it. I dont like the person I am when I’m around her… not at all. I wish she would just stumble across my website and read this so she’d know. I dont think I’d be able to tell this to her face. Although, as I’ve proven already… I’m geting better at it.

So, fuck it. I’m done. As I’ve said so many times before.

No more than ten minutes after hanging up with Michelle, the phone rang again and it was EMILY! She told me that she was BORED…. After a few moments of freaking OUT about the coincidence, we had a really cool talk. I miss talking to her on the phone, its great. Her and I get along great these days. Which I’m sure pisses Michelle off. :grins:

So that was the Attack of the Ex’s. Just a freaky coincidence.

A little while ago I got to talk to Cheryl for a good chunk of time for once. It felt good to beable to talk to her like normal. She apologized for being “wierd” lately which also made me feel good. I just need to remember to take everything a day at a time. Dont bite off more than I can chew.

Besides the incident w/ Michelle.. today was a great day.

“…”

Posted on September 15th, 2001 at 3:47am

I dont know what Im going to do about my old diary entries. I still have my old hardrive.. the actual physical drive. It is possible to retrieve data off of it, but Its costly. I need to get a quote on that…. hmm…

Today was pleasant. I didn’t do a damned thing. I sat on the pooter, played Roller Coaster Tycoon untill my fingers bled, redesigned the Drama Board, and thats about it.

Note…. I’m not calling it the AE Drama Board anymore…. :evil laugh:

This song kicks much fucking ass…. I recently got Orbital’s new CD, and most of the songs on it aren’t the old Orbital style I’m used to… however, the last song “Meltdown” is like old school Orbital but ten times darker, and more evil. Much fucking ass, it kicks.

I worked more on my website. I’m finally getting somewhere. I need to hurry up and upload the fucker. I spent 200 bucks on it, and its going to waste untill I upload a site. I wonder who actually reads my diary on a regular basis? Hmm… I think I’d rather not know. I dont think Cheryl does anymore… doesn’t have the time, I think.

She’s leaving her job at Peir One and getting a better paying job at some… something. Heh, eye glass manufactuer? Or something, I think. I hope that doesn’t mean she’s not coming in October. She said if she couldn’t get a whole month off to visit while workin at Peir One she’d just quit… but now if she has a better job she might not do that.

I’m really starting to wonder… I hope I’m just a paranoid little guy.

What else. There’s a birthday party going on tomorrow, I haven’t decided if I’m going yet. Another Emotion will be playing. I’d like to meet Charly tho. Other than that there will probably be no one I could hang out with.

I need more things to keep me busy during the day. I’m always so bored. What happened to my old life? I was gone all day long.. I loved it. I guess I need to get another job on top of Lego Land. That was my goal for last week, but I didn’t get around to doing it.

:turns up the volume: This is the best part.

“…”

Posted on September 13th, 2001 at 11:40pm

So, what do I do? Do I fake it, and be happy? That’s what I usually do… but I’m not who I usually am anymore. I’m different… “new and improved…”

I wish I knew what to say. I’m curious as to what the email said. Makes me all the more upset with my email provider… never works properly, espcially when it really matters.

Blah… so what do I talk about? I’m depressed. I probably shouldn’t be… but I can’t help it much. I wonder if my pills are kicking in yet. That might have something to do w/ me sick all the time. Infact, I bet it does.

I’ve been really tired lately. Like.. horribly tired. Even my parents have noticed it and think I might have mono.

I need to hurry up and finish my goddamned website. Its taking far too long.

I’m sorry, I wish I had more to say…. I really do.

“…”

Posted on September 13th, 2001 at 11:21pm

Fuck me.

Its not even five minutes. I dont even want to do the math. I dont want to know.

So… what do I do?

“see the girl… she put me in a whirl…”

Posted on September 12th, 2001 at 1:10am

Today was actually a pretty good day for me. Besides all that killing and destruction and such.

I’m not quite sure what to make of it all. I blame Bush. The rest of the world knows now is the time to fuck with USA because we’ve got a moron in the office. Bush spent most of the day running around like a fucking scared bunny. Hes just a moron. As simple as that.

As I said.. besides all of that shit, I’ve been doing okay for a change. I got a wonderfull 12 hours of sleep and I finally feel somewhat rested. Both my parents thing I might have Mono. Can’t imagine how on earth I’d get it… but… shit happens. I left school early, after the teacher herself left. Fuckin’ a.

So then, I drove around and ran some errands I’ve been meaning to get done. Repair my work pants, return a Bjork CD, and cash in my $750 worth of Lou’s Receipts. I got two free CD: Stereolab – Cobra And Group Phases, and DJ Shadow – Preemptive Strike. I love DJ Shadow.. he is quite the man.

I’m now addicted to a game called Roller Coaster Tycoon. Its just what I needed to get through the day.

Michelle stopped by to hang out with my mom. She tried to confront me and say she wants to be friends and such… I told her I didn’t. I’m proud of myself for that.

And that was my day in a nut shell.

“like an animal…”

Posted on September 10th, 2001 at 11:29pm

Woah… very freaky odd day.

I woke up real god damn early as always for school. Inbetween classes I met up with Paul and Jack In The Box for lunch, which was kinda cool. Almost somewhat akward. After my second class, I went home and piddled around on the computer for maybe an hour and a half. Then I went up stairs and laid down for a little bit. I had no intention of falling asleep, but I did. I fell asleep around 5, I think. And woke up just a few minutes ago and its now 11:30. The cool thing is, the second I woke up, I went online… and the moment I popped up online I ran into Cheryl.. so at least I got to talk to her tonight.

I’m keeping my fingers crossed untill further notice.

“dont stop.. tick tock…”