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Posted on February 9th, 2009 at 12:11am

These headaches will be the death of me.

Friday was a pretty decent day at work. A light load, a good lunch, and got to skip out an hour early. I used the extra hour to get ready for Marke’s birthday party. Mallory and I went up together to the Irvine Spectrum. It was pouring rain, and traffic was pretty obnoxious. It was kind of a disaster trying to get up there. I missed the off ramp, took the next to turn around, got lost outside the mall, somehow ended up on the 405 North, had to turn around again, and by then I was well over an hour late to dinner. Sadly, half out of frustration, I just gave up and went back home.

The other half was a stupid anxiety attack. I tend to get that sick-to-my-stomach belly-ache feeling before I go to things like this. A friends party, or some kind of event where I don’t know much about… I just get nervous. I once came very close to turning around on my way to Tera’s birthday party, after she moved up to LA and had made a bunch of new friends. But, this time around it was much worse than normal. Maybe it was the fact that it was gonna be a group of about 30 people I’ve never met before, or maybe it was just the added stress of getting lost in the rain, or some combination of both… But I was just not feeling too good about the night.

I’m pretty embarrassed about it, to be honest. It’s rarely ever been bad enough for me to just not show up to something. Perhaps the idea that there were 30 other people there camouflage my absence made it and easier decision for me to make. I don’t know.

Mallory and I ended up going back to my house and watching some TV and just taking it slow. It was quite nice, actually. We watched The Royal Tenenbaums… I think I fell asleep a little bit through that. Twice. She stayed until way late at night. Spent some time talking about all our exes and junk… which is certainly a favorite topic of mine.

Saturday was equally as good. We had dinner at a BBQ place called Famous Dave’s. It was quite delicious, and I look forward to going back soon. We watched Coraline in 3D, which was also quite delicious, and I plan to go back soon for that, too. My masculinity was humiliated when I couldn’t find the balls to turn around and tell the four 12 year old girls sitting behind us to shut the fuck up with their consistent talking talking talking talking talking talking throughout the whole movie. Ahem. After that, we came back to my place to watch Dreamcatcher…. which is half of a good movie. The back half of the film, however… is… uh, weird. We hung out for quite some time. I didn’t get to bed until 4 am, which hardly happens anymore.

My friend Krystle (AKA Lucille Brawl, AKA Reverend Ratticus) just completed a film project of her own to create 25 twenty-five second videos over the course of 25 days about her day-to-day life. She posted them individually as the month went on, but just the other day compiled all 25 into a ten-minute-long video. A “look into the life of” kinda thing. It’s entirely cooler than it has any right to be, so I thought I should re-post the damn thing here.

She makes me wonder what I’m doing with my life. Somewhere along the line I made a wrong turn.

Bugs Bunny and I got lost at Albuquerque.

My back hurts.

Goodnight Moon.
Maybe Someday.