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Posted on February 18th, 2009 at 1:49am

It’s nearly two in the morning, and I’m wide awake.

I came home from work very motivated to re-arrange my room after seeing some pictures of James’ friend Beamer’s workspace, and living room. It got my blood pumping, so I came home and tried to clean up my room quite a bit.

I’m quite a fan of how it all turned out. My room won’t stay this clean for much longer, I’m sure. But, for now, it’s quite nice.

I know I’m in need of a real post on this thing sometime soon. It seems every time I sit down to write, I lose all my gusto right away. I might need to start forcing myself to write more, otherwise I’m going to grow out of the habit altogether.

Maybe there’s not a ton going on these days. I’ve been trying to de-stress to the best of my ability (see: last post). I’m quite aware that my stress-level runs high on normal days. However, this month has been one bad event after another. If I make it out of February with a full head of black hair, I’ll be dammed surprised.

Add to my worries about money, and my car, and my glasses breaking (but that problem is at least fixed now), and everything else — I just haven’t been sleeping well. At all. I tend to wake up at around 5 in the morning every day. I’ll get a glass of water or something, and then just go back to bed for a few more hours. I’m waking up feeling tired and achey. I’ve got this feeling of dragging my feet behind me for the first few hours of the day. And just.. blargh! With a small amount of luck, maybe moving my bed and putting some fresh clean sheets on might calm me down a little.

I feel like I’m fighting like hell to keep my head above water. It’s exhausting. I’m starting to thinking drowning won’t be so bad.

Anywho. I’ll try this again tomorrow night. Try to get good and regular.

Goodnight Moon.
Dream On.